By Suhotra Swami
Chapter 1
Project Rathramnus
As
he reached for the door handle, Charles Wiederoy glanced at the Koyomi Oerloeg
mounted on the wall next to the doorframe. It was nearly 9:00 on an old-calendar Wednesday morning in late
October. According to the ASAT calendar it was Year 3 on a Vagbhavavara morning
of Fortnight Gebo. The temperature outside was 5 degrees Grad. Today’s Tip: “Gebo
is the rune for gift; in this season, the Vata dosha tends to have more influence on the mind than Kapha or Pitta.
The gentle wind from the west known as Zephyr (siva-vayu) interacts with that dosha
either as Mitra (‘friend’), gifting one with joy, or Varuna (‘binder’), gifting
one with a sense of emptiness.”
He
saw nothing interesting in the top news headlines, and nothing in his
voice/text mail inbox. Just before he walked out the door, he turned to catch Aitvaras’s
eye. Charles made a soft clucking noise and gave him a thumbs-up. In his big
gold cage the tough little all-black bantam cockerel bobbed his head and quickly
shuffling his sharp-spurred feet, showing off just a hint of the fight in him.
“How long do bantam roosters’ live?” Charles wondered. “Mom got me Aitvaras when
was still in the Navy. She died forty years ago.” Giving Aitvaras a wry,
affectionate look, he spoke aloud. “Hey, little guy, you do yoga when I’m away?” Little guy nuthin. Little tough
guy.
Young
roosters—the male poultry equivalent of tattooed, t-shirted tough teens hanging
out on streetcorners—are called cockerels. Aitvaras, pedigreed as the seventh son
of a black Lithuanian bantam father who was himself the seventh son of his father,
was by size and friskiness every bit a cockerel. But why he stayed so youthful
was a mystery.
Experts
in these matters agreed that bantams are directly descended from Gallus gallus, a wild jungle fowl of India . Aitvaras
sure had a lot of the jungle left in him. In San Diego there was a guy a block over who
kept chickens, mostly Rhode Island Reds. Somehow Aitvaras let himself out of
his cage, got outside and nearly killed two full-grown roosters, both twice his
size.
In
’95, a few days after Charles and Yayoi had moved to San Diego , Wiederoy’s older sister Cora showed
up all the way from Carlisle ,
Pennsylvania . She dropped Aitvaras
off with an unopened note from Laima, then sixteen years gone. A year after she
wrote it, in 1979, she died of a stroke. She had the first one fourteen months earlier, and knew she
wouldn’t survive a second.
Cora
had promised Laima that she would deliver the letter with the bird only when “Aitvaras
brings Charles and his wife to live in the States.” It was odd indeed he was in
Japan
then, unmarried; it would be years before he met Yayoi Nakano. Their initial
relationship was cordial but distant.
In
the letter Laima begged Charles to “take Aitvaras to heart. He may look like Chicken
Little to you, but I guarantee he is a genuine Aitvaras. There is no better luck than the kind he can bring to a
household.” Charles knew only one English meaning, “kite,” for the Lithuanian word
aitvaras. Neither he nor his sister
understood what Laima really meant by that word. In her letter Mom also
insisted that Aitvaras be never shut up in any cage except the one of fine gold
wire that she personally provided, which Charles estimated could not have cost
less than $500 in 1978.
The
important thing was that Aitvaras quickly won Yayoi’s heart. Almost every
evening she played the koto, the 13-stringed Japanese zither. The
black bantam loved its sound. His favorite piece was Tamasuzani, with its haunting, emotional vocal accompaniment that
Yayoi sang in a way that could make the hairs stand at the back of neck of anyone who heard her. Wiederoy had
never been able to get Yayoi to even consider recording the music she played
and sang (“that’s not the Japanese way,” she said in her The Argument Ends Here
way). Yet for “Aiti, look how handsome you are” Yayoi eagerly made an endless
cassette of 16 classics—“for Aiti, and Aiti alone.” She spoke only Japanese to
him, which Charles believed he really did understand.
As he opened the door he touched the Koto4Aiti
icon on the Oerlog’s screen. The koto’s opening flourish cascaded from the
stereo speakers like tiny gems poured by
a priest over the jade form of a Buddhist deity. Aitvaras squawked in delight
and began his bobbing in time to music that Americans had no time for.
Wiederoy
glanced at at the Oeloeg’s flashing menu for Western, Babylonian, Vedic,
Chinese, Aztec and Mayan astrological data, Aura reading, Ayurvedic pulse-taking,
Elder Futhark rune and I-Ching hexagram casting, Enneagram counseling, Motoyama
biofeedback analysis, a Q&A session with a Turing depth psychology therapist,
and a half a dozen similar options. All just a finger’s touch away. With a shrug
he stepped into the hall, locked the door behind him, and dropped his running
shoes on the floor.
As
he laced up his running shoes outside his door, he decided that Zephyr must be
acting unfavorably upon him. He’d been troubled by burglaric thoughts that sidled
up as if from nowhere to invisibly sidestep into his mind, where they perched
and chattered until driven off with a silent shout. Trouble was, they never
failed to return. What would the Turing depth psychologist call them? Wiederoy
said aloud, “A neurotic cry for attention released from the unconscious; the inarticulate
shadow-self finding a voice.”
After
decades of practice of a number of yoga techniques
for inner exploration, purification, enlightenment and release, he’d come to
believe his mind was a sterilized laboratory, no place for obsessive, objurgatory
jabbering. He remembered an obscure word, “egrigor.” Defined as a thought-form
that takes on a life of its own…yes—surely, this was an egrigor that had set up
camp in his subconscious. From there it was invading his consciousness.
Earlier
this morning, he’d been enrapt in his daily meditation session. At his age,
with his experience, it was no trouble to shut down the volume of ambient noise
inside his head. Yet like a reverse sun, a disk of night instead of day, this
egrigor of shankaa (doubt) arose from
the depths of his lower chakras into
the inner sky of his heart. It shook his concentration with the force of a
bulldog shaking a rat. This morning’s mantra-dhyana—the most important sadhana of his day—was now a shambles.
He
sighed, stood up and made for the stairs. Doubts had started to haunt him last
spring when an old friend died. “Have you lived your life to the fullest? Did
you live a good life? Was it productive?” At first Wiederoy tried to dismiss
them with a simple monologue of relative comparison. “My life has been a search
for capital-T Truth. The path I am on is more elevated than most others’, at
least in this part of the world. Western civilization is finally getting round
to taking spiritual values seriously that I
put into practice in my life
decades ago.”
But
once he entertained these doubts with even superficial attention, they deepened
into an internal dialogue. Questions came back at him honed sharper and striking
deeper. “What is a full life? How do
you know what you’ve done with your life is good? What is good?” As the months passed, the egrigor invaded his quietude
with increasing frequency, its arsenal of distractions ever more formidable. Yogis
called this visheshashankhaa, the
growth of doubt into many troubling particularities.
“Even
if you think you lived a full life, what
about the life you’re living now,
holed up in your cell on the second floor of this phalanstery for New Age
retirees? What about the future? Look at you. You talk about the world around
you adopting your values, but you’re more a stranger to this world than you
ever have been. You’ve isolated yourself just like Bjoern did. You’ve convinced
yourself that you’re better adjusted than him because you live in a city and
raised a family. But you can’t relate to the changes around you any better than
he could.”
As
summer passed into fall, he searched his heart for real answers. Unfortunately
the only answer that came was just another doubt in disguise. Bjoern Ingvaldssen,
for the last fifteen years of his life, routinely tossed it off whenever
Charles tried to talk to him about the deeper purpose of human existence. “At
my age there’s just not that much to look forward to.” Now Wiederoy found
himself locked into his old friend’s dour point of view. But because he always prided
himself on being more metaphysical than Bjoern, he had to add, “At least, not
in this life do I have much more to
look forward to.”
As
he came down the stairs to the ground floor landing, it crossed his mind that
the Greeks, for all their philosophy, had to endure the same sort of doubts. Above
the entrance of the temple
of Apollo at Delphi was inscribed their great call to
self-realization, Gnothi sauton,
“Know Thyself.” Underneath that, medem
agan was added: “Nothing too much”—which seemed to Wiederoy a shrug-off to the
blots that persist even upon the most sapient of minds.
Departing
the building, he stepped into the morning air, pale, still and clammy as a
corpse. Where’s the Zephyr? “Like that Oerloeg, I think I’m wise,” he said
aloud. “That’s trouble. Remember Heraclitus.”
Pythagoras
of the golden thigh is the first Greek known in history to have used the word
philosopher (lover of knowledge). This was what he called himself. He is
supposed to have lived around 600 B.C. Heraclitus is supposed to have lived a
century later. The latter is quoted,
Pythagoras son of Mnesarchus pursued inquiry further
than all other men and, choosing what he liked from these compositions, he made
a wisdom of his own; much learning, artful knavery.
And:
The great man is eminent in imagining things, and on
this he hangs his reputation for knowing it all.
Heraclitus
maintained that there is more to wisdom than the furnishings of the mind. Ethos anthropos daimon—character, for
man, is his fate, or his personal divinity. In Sanskrit, daimon would be rendered daiva.
What else had Heraclitus said about fate or divinity? There was an aphorism
that began aion paiz paizon. “The
lifetime of a man (aion) is a child
at play (paiz paizon), moving pieces
in a game. Kingship belongs to the child.” Aion,
as far as Wiederoy remembered, was a synonym for time (chronos) as well as eternal life (aeizo-on). The sayings of Heraclitus—of which there is no original
text; whatever is known of them are found in the works of other Greek or Roman
writers—are full of riddles. No matter, today it suited Wiederoy to tie these two
aphorisms together. Daimon, like aion, indicates our fate or the time we must
live through in this life. Yet daimon,
like aion, is eternity too. Time (kalo
asmi), fate (daivi hy esa guna-mayi
mama maya duratyaya), character (daivi sampad vimoksaya nibandhayasuri mata), eternity (mahatmanas tu mam partha daivim prakrtim asritah), are a child at
play. The Divine Child. Janma karma ca me
divyam. Kingship belongs to the Child.
“What
does that Child want with me?” he murmured aloud on the curb, waiting for a
black Andruss Palmerin with government plates and tinted windscreens to glide
silently by.
Bjoern
Ingvaldssen always waved such ruminations off. Yet he had a sailor’s natural
superstition, and Wiederoy was his freit—something to which his superstition
attached itself: the skipper’s good luck charm. Ingvalsson’s profession had
been as dangerous as it was rare. He’d helmed the Umitsubame, an oceanographic
exploration “submersible,” which is what civilian scientific submarines are
called. They’d met in Japan
in 1986 when Mr. Yukio Nakano, the owner of the Umitsubame and the organization behind
it, Kairyu Dantai, offered Wiederoy a job. The pay was fabulous. “The logic of Kairyu
Dantai’s wealth,” Nakano used to say, “is the algorithm I personally developed
for running it: D1 + D2 = BP: ‘Daring plus danger equals big profits.’”
For
eight exciting years Wiederoy sailed with the Umitsubame. Weighing in at less than 1500 tons, carrying 25
personnel max, she was a delphinet compared to contemporary military submarines.
But she was a delphinet too in her eager, swift hydrophilia.
Her
design was inspired by the experimental Type XXI U-boat, one of the Wunderwaffen the Germans were readying
for production when the Third Reich crashed and burned. The Soviet Navy
developed Type XXI technology into its Whiskey and Zulu class submarine programs.
The heart of this technology was the Walter hydrogen-peroxide fuelled turbine.
Kairyu
Dantai produced its own Walter-type kasankabutsu
turbine that could comfortably drive the Umitsubame
at 25 knots per hour 330 meters beneath the surface for 8 hours straight
(one knot is 1.85 kilometers). If she stayed her speed below 10 knots, the Umitsubame could remain submerged for a
week, reaching depths as low as 760 meters. For surface travel she used diesel
power.
The
submersible was equipped with a retractable manipulator and a mechanical
recovery claw for salvage operations. She had wheels on which to rest on the
ocean floor. When her turbine was powered down, compressed air thrusters moved
her with precision—port, starboard, forward, backward, up, down, or in a
circular axis like a huge single-bladed propeller. Variable ballasts in long
tubes that hung pontoon-like from her lower hull helped her be agile at great depths.
Ingvaldssen
snuck all around the Pacific and, occasionally and even more hermetically, forayed
into the Atlantic . The Umitsubame mission: exploring uninhabited volcanic islands. Sonar
charting the ocean floor. Collecting specimens of sea life. Investigating
sunken archaeological sites. This in particular was Wiederoy’s department—he
had a B.A. from UPenn in archaeology; one of his professors had been Dr. John
Cullinane, a big name back in the sixties and seventies.
All
these underwater research programs cost money. The Umitsubame had two other missions that not only funded them, they made
Kairyu Dantai rich. Wiederoy knew almost nothing about them until much later,
when Bjoern unburdened himself of his secrets...the last time they talked, two
and a half years ago.
Wiederoy
laughed bittterly. How self-servingly stupid he had been, for years, to try to find comfort in knowing “almost nothing” about what was
going on—when in his first year with the Umitsubami
he, Bjoern and Yukoi Nakano’s daughter Yayoi had almost been killed in the most
ghastly manner on the little Pacific island of Medama-ochi (or as the Americans
called it, Medamothi).
Following
that, there was the incident in Lake
Logurinn in Western Iceland , the most frightening event of his life. Then
there were the long swift underwater runs the Umitusbami took over superheated volcanic vents on the ocean
bottom…and the strange creaking sound that came from the hull as something out there,
out in the ocean, wrapped itself around the submersible. But
nobody—especially Bjoern—wanted to sat anything about it. And when Bjoern finally
did, it was too late anyway. For these reasons, a bewildered Charles went on
pilgrimage for three months to Nepal
in 1987. But he came back.
“Folly
in youth is sin,” Wiederoy said to himself. “But at my age it becomes madness.”
Nine years of his youth spent in deliberate nihiliscience, of “just following
orders”—even as the Umitsubame plunged
through an ancient barrier that a Chinese legend tells was set up by the Yellow
Emperor of Canton to keep apart the kingdom of men from the kingdom of mirrors—even
as Charles, Yayoi and Bjoern took leave of the saeculum, the consensus reality of “sane human beings,” to explore the reverse
world of Ungaikyo, the Fish of the Mirror—was it all catching up to him now? Was
he losing his mind?
The
ascetic face of his mother Laima appeared in a beaming glode of his beclouded memory.
She reproved him with her melancholy, Angelite-blue eyes. “Jeigu ash, su shventos dvaisos pagalba, ishvarychiu vennius, tada Dievo
karalyste atsivertu tu!” With these words she had so often had urged him to
stand fast, to never abandon himself to demons of doubt by caving into the
idiocy of Western psychology. Had she not vowed to him on the day he was born that
“If I cast out devils by the spirit of God, then the kingdom of God
is upon you”?
She’d
educated him well in the history of the saeculum,
the world of men. By the time Charles was an adolescent he could recite the
names, dates and “reasons” why individuals, sects and even whole regions of the
European continent, were excommunicated, tormented and massacred for the “abomination”
of seeking God by light that came from sources other than the ophidian
iridescence of the post-Rathramnus
Church of Rome . He knew that in
1209 at Beziers ,
where “heretical” Cathars lived side-by-side Roman Catholics, the entire city
was sacked by Pope Innocent III’s crusaders. Twenty thousand people were
murdered—Catholics, Cathars, it didn’t matter—because of the Pope’s order:
“Kill them all, let God sort them out.” He knew the first female victim of the
Church was a gifted mathematician and philosopher, Hypatia, daughter of Theon
of Alexandria. As a teacher, Hypatia was celebrated as “The Philosopher” and
“The Nurse.” Bishop Cyril of Alexandria
was outraged that, first, the public respected a mere woman because of her
scholarship; and second, that she taught classical Greek doctrines that the
Church wanted uprooted because of their “paganism.” In 415 a Catholic mob
tortured, murdered, then dismembered Hypatia. Mass murderers, Laima argued,
were no judges of who is sane and who is not.
This
act of looking back at his youth twisted his mind into a contrapposto. He suddenly
saw the eidetic image of a witticism he’d read long ago:
The
most serious doubt that has been thrown on the authenticity of miracles is the
fact that most of the witnesses were fishermen.
Was
the Umitsubame’s crew any better than
fishermen? Semel insanivimus omnes: at
one time every one of us has been crazy. But no. What he, Yayoi and Bjoern had
experienced together, and Bjoern’s final confession of why they had seen what they did, would certainly not to be
dismissed by today’s science…the
science that began in 1993, a quarter of a century ago, when the Japanese
Science and Technology Agency announced its intention to develop a Generation 6
global computerized telecommunications network that would cultivate the innate
extrasensory powers of the human psyche. The JSTA declared then that the far frontier
of technology was “the study of man’s spiritual activities.” The very purpose
of the new ASAT calendar was to mark the progress of that frontier’s settlement
and civilizing. What Aldous Huxley (1894-1963) wrote in Brave New World Revisited, his non-fictional commentary on his
famous novel, was well underway.
The
twenty-first century…will be the era of the World Controllers…The older
dictators fell because they could never supply their subjects with enough
bread, enough circuses, enough miracles and mysteries. Under a scientific
dictatorship education will really work—with the result that most men and women
will grow up to love their servitude and will never dream of revolution. There
seems to be no good reason why a thoroughly scientific dictatorship should ever
be overthrown.
Charles
had to be honest with himself. When he was crewed on the Umitsubame, he did know—and
just didn’t want to stop to think too much about it—that Nakano wired their
paychecks from Kairyu Dantai’s HQ in the industrial district on the seafront of
the Uraga Channel, the inlet that connects Tokyo Bay and the Pacific Ocean, to
a Latin American country with a Pacific shoreline. A small but economically
significant percentage of this country’s population is made up of immigrants
from Japan .
One of the wealthiest members of that community was a nephew and kyoushi (godson) of Yukio Nakano. The
godson owned a bank fortuitously located in a Pacific coastal city of the Latin
American country. Savings accounts opened at this bank by employees of Kairyu
Dantai paid 22.5 percent interest per annum, tax free.
Ingvaldssen
had worked for Nakano since 1975. When his boss died in ’95 he let Wiederoy
know that it was Nakano’s plan that Kairyu Dantai be broken up. The first thing
to go would be the Umitsubame. After
they submitted their resignations in Tokyo ,
Ingvaldssen took the submersible out
to sea with a skeleton crew. The skipper and his men returned on the Michizure Maru, the supply ship that
accompanied the Umitsubame on all her
voyages. When pressed by a curious Wiederoy, Ingvaldssen whispered that a
secret clause in Nakano’s will stipulated that the submersible be scuttled over
the Japan Trench , eight and a half kilometers deep.
Bjoern,
a frugal old cuss of Norwegian parentage, had twenty years of savings in the
Latin American bank that made him a millionaire several times over. Wiederoy
had worked for Kairyu Dantai for less than nine years at a lower pay scale. But
in 1988 he married Yayoi Nakano, Yukio’s marine biologist daughter. In her
twenties, she was in charge of the collection and cataloguing of sea life
whenever the Umitsubame sailed. As
her father’s only child, she inherited his personal fortune, also salted away
in the Latin American bank.
So
it wasn’t for want of money but for the sake of being productive that Mr. and
Mrs. Charles and Yayoi Wiederoy moved to San
Diego . They both took teachers’ posts, she at Scripps
Institution of Oceanography at La Jolla , he at
the sprawling 11th U.S. Naval District on San Diego Bay .
In a civilian neighborhood on the Bay’s east end they bought a house. Like
sundown-reflecting iridules above Point Loma on the Bay’s west end, a couple of
magic years glided by.
Bjoern,
in the meantime, couldn’t let go of the briny. He moved to Kauai
in the Hawaiian Islands , bought a house that
faced the waves and parked a sailboat out front. Last spring, at eighty-seven
years old, he drowned while boating between Kauai
and the nearby island
of Niihau . “Death by
misadventure,” read the coroner’s report.
Charles suspected suicide. He hoped it wasn’t worse than that.
To
understand what happened in Charles Wiederoy’s life after San Diego , we must rewind it to the years
1977 through 1982. In ’77 he graduated from the University in Pennsylvania with a B.A. in archaeology. He
was also four years in the school’s Reserve Officer’s Training Corps program. He
earned a commission in the U.S. Navy, which he joined the same year. From the
start of his ROTC training he had but one aim: to be an investigator for the
Office of Naval Intelligence. At the end of 1978 he was a lieutenant junior
grade, a rank nearly the equivalent of a captain in the U.S. Army.
By
this time the ONI had taken him into its fold. Sent to Japan as a
covert operative, he was assigned to a CO (commanding officer) on a Navy base
on the coast of Okinawa . This man was a
captain, the Navy’s equivalent to an Army colonel, with the improbable name of
Ramon Yamato. Seven years older than Wiederoy, he had come up through the ranks
not by an ROTC commission but by gathering intel under fire with the Navy Seals
during the Vietnam war.
Captain
Yamato had a formidable reputation for bravery and brilliance. Wiederoy had
been warned his new CO might ride him hard for being a college-educated pup.
Yamato was something of a self-made polymath, with an aura of arrogance that
typically attends the self-educated.
His
background suggested he marched through life with an enormous chip on his
shoulder. Yamato’s mother, Juana Ines de Miranda, was a pure-blooded Spanish
woman whose family tree went back to the Californios, the Hispanic settlers who
in 1821 declared California
an independent country. That lasted until 1847, when American troops occupied
the capital, El Pueblo de la Reyna de Los Angeles . Juana’s family, six
generations before, had been landowners of fabulous wealth. Now all they had
was their pride at having not a drop of Anglo nor Aztec blood in their veins.
By
the time she was twelve Juana was an expert seamstress; by sixteen, she was a
tailor of clothing for both sexes. In 1947, when she was a comely eighteen years
of age, a wealthy Anglo couple hired her on a full-time basis. Her employers
were both involved in the burgeoning new television industry. They wanted to
look as fresh, new and stylish as the electronic medium that, during that very
year, would begin to rock the boats of the old Hollywood
studios—and would not stop rocking them until the studio system sank in the
1960s.
The
couple loved Juana’s original designs and her meticulous workmanship. She knew
she had the talent to start her own fashion business, but a sense of nobility
and independence nurtured within her by her proud parents put paid to any
notion of risky business ventures with common money-grubbers. Stability and
security were everything to Juana, and that meant finding a responsible man to
be her husband.
Men
of pure Californio heritage were hard to find. The Anglo family she worked for
employed a Nisei who was ten years older than Juana. She found him a sincere,
honest man who was as proud of his Japanese bloodline as she was of being pure
Spanish. Watching him standing tall in the garden, his features of that special
noble, gentle type she’d seen on the statues of Japanese gods with names like
Amida and Miroku in the windows of expensive import shops, Juana felt an aching
tug in her heart that sometimes wouldn’t leave her until she cried herself to
sleep at night. But the next morning she would again have to lay eyes upon him,
and the wound would reopen.
His
name was Hajime Yamato. Working in the same household eight hours a day soon put
them on a first name basis. When he proposed to her, she was afraid to tell her
parents, and was amazed by their approval when she did. We respect the
Japanese, they told her. They are good people, honest people, neither Anglo nor
mixed-blood Indio-Mexican.
It
certainly helped that Hajime had fought with distinction in Italy with the
famed 442nd “Go For Broke” Regimental Combat Team that the U.S. Army
grudgingly formed so that young Japanese-American men could prove their loyalty
during the Second World War. Hajime walked with a slight limp from a combat
injury. His emotions were mangled too, but he kept that to himself. His
comrades died around him by the dozens on Hill 140 (“Little Cassino” near Livorno ) in the summer of 1944, but that didn’t really
hurt him.
What
did was a letter he received from his mother soon afterward. During the same
summer his first wife, Izumi, a fragile doll of a woman, died of Huntington chorea in the Manzanar Relocation Center ,
a concentration camp for Americans of Japanese ancestry back in California . Months after
they’d wed, Juana wheedled that out of him. Then all she could do was stare at
her man’s face, her mouth moving soundlessly. But there were no words for this,
so she just buried her head into his chest and wrapped her arms around him as
tightly as she could. Hajime stared into the distance, feeling Juana’s tears
run down his shirtfront.
Prior
to their internment in 1942, Hajime’s family had owned a farm; in 1945 they
learned it had been sold to a family named Peterson that had moved west from Oklahoma . That’s why Hajime
was now a gardener. This particularly incensed Ramon, Juana Ines’s father.
“What the Anglo government did to the Japanese-Americans was a repeat of what
they did to the Californios when Captain Fremont’s troops conquered us. They
marched in, took command of what we had worked so hard to build up, and at
gunpoint dispossessed us.”
In
1958 Hajime Yamato died of cancer. His son Ramon Yamato was ten years old. The effect
of a father’s death—and such a
father!—on her only child worried Juana so. He was too young to suffer a broken
heart.
During
a stint in Washington D.C. in 1975, right after the end of the
Vietnam War, while the reverberations of the Watergate scandal still rang in the
Federal Government’s halls, Captain Ramon Yamato used his ONI pull to find out the
truth behind the death of his chichi.
In the late 1940s his dad was invited by the Veteran’s Administration to try
out a new treatment for his war injury. The government doctors told him that
regular injections of plutonium offered a good chance of curing his limp. Hajime
Yamato signed a paper that permitted them to commence with “the experiment.” He
had no idea what plutonium was, and his doctors made no effort to inform him.
Much
later, on 3 October 1995, President Bill Clinton would glibly apologize to the
people of the United States for what had two years earlier been brought to
public attention by the new Atomic Energy Commissioner Hazel O’Leary (known to
some in the Pentagon as “Witch Hazel”): that during the Cold War, thousands of
U.S. citizens were suckered by their government into a nationwide test of the
effects of atomic radiation upon the human organism.
Before
accepting his assignment to the base commanded by Captain Yamato, Wiederoy had
been shown a file on his new CO. Some of the above facts about the man were
omitted, but enough were included so that when they met, Wiederoy didn’t need a
degree in psychiatry to understand that his captain was a conflicted man. A
light touch with someone so emotionally scarred was only prudent.
He
was an expert at it, but still Yamato consumed a lot of energy just keeping a
lid on his boiling emotions. Wiederoy’s impression was that his CO fit a
(probably archaic) psychological profile known as choleric-sanguine. The
captain was a quick study, brainy and determined. He was capable of judging
situations around him with incisiveness. His trouble was factoring a place for
himself within the environment in which he was expected to live and work. Too
much bottled-up anger, too much inner pain.
Wiederoy
saw it in Yamato’s eyes. When he was a kid, Wiederoy’s mother had taken him on
a vacation to Florida .
They stayed at the home of a woman his Mom knew. One morning he awoke, looked
out the window and saw a live alligator in the back yard. Captain Yamato had the
eyes of that alligator—eyes that never betrayed a shift of emotion, eyes that
were coldly unforgiving, patient in their fury, and most of all, ever-watchful.
Wiederoy
was soon turning in surreptitious photographs and tape recordings of drug deals
as they went down in Okinawa . Captain Yamato
seemed satisfied with his work. A man named Roy Earle—military rank unknown, if
he even had one, who belonged to a special unit within the ONI—had gotten friendly
with Wiederoy in Washington .
It turned out Earle had field experience in “dealing with” Asian drug
traffickers. He’d warned Wiederoy that anything less than a satisfactory performance
might set aflame what scientist Carl Sagan called the “reptilian” portion of Yamato’s
brain. Earle said the shoddy work of an operative previously assigned to the Captain
had set off a paroxysm of fury in the CO; Yamato chased the man down the streets
of Okinawa city dressed like a local, screaming
profanity after him only in the dialect of the island.
To
the Okinawans, there was no cause to call the police, even as Yamato beat the
operative to a pulp. Most of them merely averted their gaze. To them, a fellow
countryman had finally dispensed with the façade of servility and was venting
his honest frustration at some arrogant Gai-jin
in the uniform of the conqueror. One man even joined Yamato in his chase,
weeping in a release of joyful fury as he ran to catch up, crying out “Mishima!
Mishima!” after the famous novelist who formed the Tate no Kai (Shield Society) in the 1960s to protect Japan from
creeping Americanism.
Yet
what Wiederoy witnessed with his own eyes was quite the opposite. Yamato seemed
an officer and a gentleman. It was true that his gentility glinted a little too
brightly, like a razor held up to the sunlight. Yamato had his way of letting
you know who was in charge at all times. Yet while his sense of
self-entitlement was obvious, he did not rub Wiederoy’s nose in it. In fact he
went out of his way to be friendly.
At
least three mornings a week they met first thing in the Captain’s office—Wiederoy
having to hand over surveillance evidence or submit an oral or written verbal
report, or to receive instructions on a new assignment. Yamato never failed to brew
up a pot of Sayama green tea. The Captain tried to make the most of these
relaxed moments by calmly laying out his positions on a number of subjects that
at first seemed far removed from police work. Yet on whatever off-beat subject
he spoke, Yamato was never asleep at the wheel. He had an instinct for knowing
when a speculative exploration of metaphysics had to return to that tried-and-true
definition of politics—“making the best out of an imperfect world.”
.
Yamato’s
voice seemed incapable of much more than a forceful whisper. Pouring out the
tea, he more than once offhandedly rasped that he received packages of Sayama free of charge from his good friends at the
JDF (Japanese Defense Force) HQ at Iruma on Honshu ,
the Japanese mainland. In spite of the Captain’s soughing, Wiederoy never had
to strain his ears to catch what the Captain was saying, nor was he ever
obliged to ask him repeat something he once said. Yamato had that rare talent
of being able to cast his voice into his hearer’s consciousness. It was a skill
that a UPenn history professor discussed for the better part of an entire class
period. At the site of one of the bloodiest battles of the American Civil War, Gettysburg , Pennsylvania ,
President Abraham Lincoln read an address to a gathering of thousands. This was
long before the age of microphones and public address systems. Every person
present heard the President loud and clear.
The
morning Wiederoy’s investigation came to its final end, he silently laid a
cassette tape in a small Manila envelope on
his CO’s desk. “Lieutenant,” Yamato hissed, “you realize that this tape you’re
giving me is only possible because you’re plugged into a network of
information, right?”
“I
believe so, Captain. That’s a reasonable observation.”
“Thank
you, Lieutenant. I think it’s not only reasonable, it pretty much sums up the nature
of reality in which we live and work. Sit down, sit down.” Wiederoy took a
wooden swivel chair that stood on rollers. His CO handed him a little cup of
freshly brewed tea and asked, “You ever hear of something called quantum field
theory?”
“Well,
sir, I am college educated and all that, but physics was never my particular
field of study.”
“Don’t
worry, Lieutenant. I’m not trying to drop you into some theoretical swamp to
leave you to flounder around so that I can get a laugh out of it. I aim to stay within the bounds of relevance. And
God knows what I have to say is relevant.
I mean, it’s relevant to what we’re—your’re—doing in the field for the ONI. So
just bear with me. I’m not an expert, but from what I understand, quantum field
theory holds that the universe is criss-crossed by what amounts to a cosmic
information network that holds together the whole of creation, or whatever you
want to call it—the total universe, the complete reality—whatever the
appropriate terminology is for the whole shebang after the initial big bang. It’s
held together by information. Clear enough so far?”
“Sure,
Captain.”
“But
this information appears to us as a vast electromagnetic field. Did you know
that this”—he rapped on his tabletop—“is just made out of positive and negative
electric charges? Electric charge is the main component of atomic and subatomic
structures. When these charges cancel themselves out—you know?—when the positive
and negative charges are balanced, so there’s no massive surge of energy from
one point to another, we get what everybody calls regular, good old matter.”
“Yessir.”
“But
in fact there’s no difference between electricity and matter. Water in a lake—still
water that is in balance with itself, not moving anywhere, not flowing—is like
matter, and water in a river—flowing along, branching out in different
directions, seeming with a life of its own—is electricity.
“This
is true of our own bodies. Our nervous system functions because of a constant
flow of neurochemical charges. And yet we’re loathe to admit the body is
changing at every moment, getting older by the second. We see it as something static
and perdurable.
“So
that’s the first point, Charles. Everything we know is just electrical charge. Either it is balanced or in flux, but
there’s no point in calling the balanced charge ‘matter’ any more than there’s
a point to saying a completely still lake with a mirror surface isn’t the same
thing as the stuff squirting out of your garden hose. All you’d be doing by
arguing that is assigning conditional names to one substance that we all know
adjusts itself to different conditions, right? You might as well take the word
‘water’ and rearrange the letters—‘retaw,’ ‘tawre,’ ‘werat.’—to describe the
different ways it behaves.”
Yamato
went silent. In that long moment he seemed to turn inward, leaving Wiederoy and
the world far from himself. Then he was back. Casually sipping his tea, he
asked, “You know something about Buddhism?”
“A
little, sir. Since being stationed in this country I’ve been doing a little
reading…”
“I
was raised a Buddhist. Actually a Buddhist and
a Catholic, but I liked Buddhism better. Of course I have to admit I was
never good at either. What the hell would I be doing in this uniform if I was a
good Buddhist? Be that as it may, there’s one thing I learned that I never
forgot. Probably the only thing, and I guess that’s why I ended up in the Navy.
That one lesson is that the law of the Buddha is mahasamudra, the Great
Ocean . Buddhist scripture
attributes eight qualities to: it’s cold, clear, swiftly flowing, pleasant to
the taste, fresh, and offends neither the throat nor the stomach. The Great Ocean
is the very ‘stuff’ of reality.
“Think
about it, Wiederoy. The ocean we know is one thing, right? Yet as Navy men we
know better than anyone how differently it behaves. It even appears differently. Different areas of
the ocean have different optical properties. The ocean
has the most varied naturally occurring physical states of any material or
substance on Earth, whether solid, liquid, or gas. It has the greatest capacity
to do things without being altered significantly. It contains in potential
all other things. Science tells us life originated in the ocean. Dissolved in
its waters are traces of the building blocks of everything we know on earth,
organic and inorganic. The rain clouds above our heads are evaporated ocean
water. And finally, the ocean is Nirvana. You read philosophy, Wiederoy?”
“I’m
interested in religion and philosophy, sir. But my study of it isn’t very
developed, at least not yet.”
“Well,
maybe after this conversation, you’ll enter deeper these waters I’m speaking
about. Nirvana as the ocean: Heraclitus—never read him, I suppose?”
“Not
yet, sir. But as you say…”
“…after
our talk, you will. Good. Heraclitus, who lived around the same time as the
Buddha but half a world away, said,
It is a delight, not death, for souls to become moist.
“And
another saying attributed to him is,
The reversals of fire: first sea; but of sea half is
earth, half lightning storm.
“Lapsed
Buddhist that I am, I believe Heraclitus meant fire to be the great cosmic
ocean of electrical charge. Its balanced aspect appears as sea and then earth.
Two opposite examples of physical matter. Its reversed aspect is lightning
(electricity).
“When
I hear someone talk about ‘the ultimate state of nature’ I think of the ocean. The
ocean is one, yet because of its natural diversity, there is much we can,
should and must learn from it. The
eight qualities, for example—that’s information. Most of Japanese Buddhism owes
a great deal to the Indian Buddhist philosopher Nagarjuna. I recall that in his
description of the mahasamudra, he
did not place Nirvana under the waters; he described it as an Island
where the streams of ignorance and passion do not reach. It is an Island made from the most precious jewel of the most
profound dharma, complete peace.